Always moving

I noticed this trait of mine when I was in high school. Early morning and I was waiting for the bus. I noticed I was getting agitated just waiting in place like that. So I started walking toward the previous bus stop. It felt good to be moving and also in my mind, now I had a better chance to get a seat since I will be riding the bus sooner. A lot of similar instances followed and I become more intimate with this trait by doing it whenever I can, and yes, I did miss a couple of buses because they came while I was in between station but hey it was worth it.

The other side

I can't just relax and enjoy the moment. I noticed that I have to be doing something. Either moving as in going somewhere or coming from somewhere, sitting while reading or listening to an audiobook. Now try to have a conversation with me at any of these junctions, and I will be treating it like a item to be done, and not an activity to be enjoyed. I would chat a bit but my mind would me looking for what to do next! This scene is already over for me and I am looking for the next one.

Action

This cannot go on. I need to learn to just go with the flow sometimes. I will not rush these moments no more but rather savour it. Enjoy these little interactions and don't run away. Don't hide behind your excuses of being a nice person or considerate of the other person time or whatever. That is just an lie you tell yourself to hide your lack patience. Now I wait.